Let’s rewrite this bit…

Love is a unique emotion. It is different for every individual. For some it’s an all consuming passion like a raging fire. And for others, it’s gentle, and subtle, like the shift in the breeze, caused by a butterfly’s wings. And then, there are a million degrees of this emotion that so naturally finds a place in our hearts. But what of heartbreak? How different is it for us? To me, it’s crumbling, debilitating, devastating. I build love on trust and respect. And its loss wounds these two noble feelings, deep within me.

So, over the years, I have learned to love, but with a little less trust, a little less respect. And now, I know that isn’t how you love. You love with abandon; you love like there isn’t anything to the next moment. And now, after all these years of hurting and being wounded, I want to learn how a child loves. A child loves with such adulation, such hero worship! A child loves without doubt, without questioning. A child cherishes love, one precious moment at a time. Isn’t that how love should be enjoyed? And what is love if it aches all the time. If it doesn’t liberate you?

If there is a love in your life that has caused more hurt than joy, it’s time to purge. Please do this one thing for yourself. I know how it is. It’s like cutting off a limb, isn’t it? But trust me, love is a happy emotion. Try and remember how it felt to be in love the very first time? That sweet pain you felt in the pit of your gut? When the world appeared sweeter, there was a reason to everything, and every event was serendipity. You know what, that’s how love was supposed to be! Love wasn’t meant to be hurtful words, and allegations, and repressed anger, and betrayal.

Today, I purge myself of anger. Today, I liberate myself. Today, I choose to leave the past behind and move on, to new worlds, perfect the way I want them to be. Today, I start penning my new life, with a destiny I alone can write. Today, I promise myself, I will pen a perfect love story. A love so pristine, gentle and beautiful, it will be talked about, for years. Today, I start writing a new love story.

Bucket Lists. Let’s make one too!

I was reading someone’s bucket list and the idea hit me. We live through our life without once bothering to stop and ask for directions. We go round and round in circles and like the characters of “Groundhog Day”, we live the same day over and over again. Till we die and there is no more living left to be done. What a waste!

Living the same day over and over again!

I am tired of saying “one day”. What day will it be? What year? What’s the guarantee I won’t get run over by the next speeding bus? It’s happened to people I know. What if you got to know that this is the Last Year of your life? That by the time this year ends, you will be dead? And that there is nothing anyone can do to change it? I don’t know about you, but I’d rush to do some quality living. I’d want to savor every moment as it will never happen again. I would want to climb mountains and go deep-sea diving. Okay maybe not deep sea diving, as I am not too kicked about being under water. I would want to live every day differently. Do something new. So I decided to treat this year as the Last Year of my life.

I have a Bucket List too!

And I have my bucket list ready.

1. I want to learn swimming. In a pool. With only humans swimming around. That’s good for starters.

2. I want to lose 10 kgs. That’s over 20 pounds!

3. I want to visit Leh-Ladakh.

4. I want to start a line of Interior Design Products.

5. I want to make a difference to the lives of other people, in a positive way.

6. I want to learn a new thing… dancing…language… anything…

7. I want to become a well-known Fashion Blogger.

8. I want to get my friend Sanam to meet her favorite hero, John Abraham.

9. I want to do a course in cooking.

10. I want to be truly, completely happy…

I guess that’s good for starters. I might add to this. But for now, these seem like a good enough set of things to do before I die. And I have a year’s deadline too!