It's been a long time since I last posted here. My absence has less to do with not having anything to say, and more to do with having too much to say. Processing my thoughts and making them into non-judgmental perspectives has been one of the biggest challenges of my life. And I am no genius. Being an average person going about your life isn't perhaps the most intriguing challenge on the face of it, but trust me, life throws enough surprises.
For example, I have realized that I "think" too much, and "do" too less. By doing I don't really mean turning the world on its head. I just mean simple things like potting a plant and caring for it, making things like I used to. Like stuff you do with your body and not with your mind. I used to spend long nights just making hair accessories that my friends would buy and love wearing. I used to make handmade gift notes, and suddenly-something desserts for my colleagues. Over the past two years, there has been a sharp fall in these activities. I have been more focused on my family and my home. But I miss "doing", the act of moving things around, creating something new, just channelizing my energy into a physical object.
So while I try to regain that state of calm and inner peace through these simple acts, do look inwards. Look back to the times you were most at peace with yourself. If that time is now... Congratulations! If it never happened, keep seeking. If it lies in the past, learn from it. I think I am going to do some paper crafts.